Artsy Farsy - The way of living life
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
7:28 PM
In one way or the other, my life seems to be such an indie film (independent film), unconventional, surreal, yet true. Watched The Tracey Fragments for about the 3rd time and am really depressed right now. There is this quote from the movie that is really true. This is how it goes...
Tracey Berkowitz: I kinda like to ride a different bus every night depending on my mood. Like, if I'm depressed, I enjoy being around other depressed people. And happy people, they frickin depress me! You know?
That's so freaking true! BUT! I don't take different buses when i am unhappy, i walk. I walk a lot. Maybe i don't look like it but i am a psycho who enjoyswalking long distances. I remember there was this one time when i ran away from home with a close friend of mine (not gonna name the person), we walked all the way from Jurong East MRT station to the gate of our primary school before we got caught by the police. loLx. Pretty interesting experience - i mean, the experience with the police and sitting in a police car. It's rare that you will ever know a Singaporean who's been to the police station cause they are too KIASI and KIASU! Well anyway, the past is the past -let bygones be bygones. I am not going to into that place again cause it's igloo. Don't ask me why. Just feels and looks like it.
Walking, somehow, allows me to sort of my thoughts, emotions, feelings over subjects that are bothering me very much at that point of time. And after walking, you sort of SORT YOURSELF OUT and understand that you can do something to the problems that you are facing. YOu find ur heart at ease after a while cause you have already found the solutions to the problems. After being through so much (close friends should know), i came to a realisation that running away or avoidance can never solve the problem - the problem will forever be there. So if you want the problem to just get away from you, do something to it. Do what you think you need to do. Do what you think will make you remain sane.
I am always freaking depressed when i am around happy people. This is mainly due to the fact that i can't understand why they are so happy when i am so sad, depressed, filled with sorrow. And then you feel like getting out from that god damn place which is making you like...SO DEPRESSED. You understand what i mean?
I doubt that few can understand the meanings of this article cause it seemed to be just so full of shit. But maybe you will once you gone through what i have gone through and you will know this message by heart - Just be who you are.
