Forever Outcast...
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
7:43 PM
This is a very in depth research on why some of us are always such an outcast and why certain people seem to be able to fit in whereever they go. Well. I am the forever outcast. So let's look at this article in the perception of an outcast.
I am a geek. I am a jerk. I am a ugly person. I love grape tea.
Do you see something in the above statement?
Forever, no matter what, no matter where, no matter when - the beautiful people which the angelic face will get into the cliques faster than we all do. Rmb, people judges a book by it's cover (although not all, but most do). The hypocrites, liars, betrayals, traitors - the jerks will never be included in any cliques of course. IS THERE SOMETHING SUCH AS GRAPE TEA? I don't think it's even edible...
Me am someone who's not pretty (means ugly), geeky looking, fat, a jerk and loves things that people don't even know that existed. LOOK AT MY DOUBLE CHIN. I shall call myself the CAUTIONARY WHALE or HORTON from this day on.
Cause of me looking so ordinary and perceived as a person whom attitude sucks when what i REALLY sucked in is expressing myself - I am the OUTCAST. Not trying change any current status by posting this post...you know...i just wanna make a change to anyone out there who are trying to get out of this state - Not liked, not loved, not cared. This is the solution to you if you are a seondary/JC/poly student in Singapore.
PLEASE be as bitchy as possible. The bitchy people with the BITCHY hairstyles always gets their friends to thei side. Gossips, rumours are a MUST to spread if you wanna be the next "IT" girl in your class. True/False is not a question that is objective, it's subjected to your own beliefs and imagination. Have a wild imagination - make fun of your friends while they are not in the classroom, PLAY with the whiteboard.YESH! This is the solution to your current status of being an outcast. In the twenty-first century, philosophies and the oxymoron known as INNER BEAUTY does NOT exist! Get the facts and if you really wanna be in the clique, prepare for some BULIMIA and ANOREXIA NERVOSA cause you need to be so tall and thin. AND of course, stop wasting your $$$ on food for thoughts, food for paper - spend them on clothes, cosmetics and the hairdressers. Colour your face like a colour pallette - PUT ON THAT MASK!
These are just some of the people whom you will have problems with once you grow up to be my age. Can't seem to fit in cause you just can't make yourself fit into that fking mould that people like yourself created for YOURSELF. Life's cruel, and so am I...and so are you.
I am whining here about some people i experienced in the past - luckily i have lost contacts with them all and what's left is just the beautiful souls that i have the honour to be ever associated with, who saved my life from the debris i created for myself in this rotting world and in my faltering heart which almost refused to believe that there's ever a thing known to us as HUMANITIES. The most painful fact is, of course, realising that you slowly slip out of your soul, like you have been applied slime and being removed your physical self. You float on air without any reliance and there you know - heading towards self-destruction. AND THE MOST MOST MOST PAINFUL THING IS realising that you slowly become the type of person you HATE. When you hate yourself, you are nothing by just a piece of trash. This is when people turn suicidal, i believe, when you yourself can't even fit into yourself.
There you are. Just a sudden thought that comes sparking from my mind. Brought some memories that i thought i have long forgotten - when you think you have forgotten something, you know you haven't forgotten it at all, in contrary, you rmb them as vividly...
Current status: Outcast
I am 16. Just a normal girl who hates herself.
Emo-ing is not good for health. Quit emo-ing. MOVE ON!
