A New Life
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Saturday, September 27, 2008
11:35 PM
Just came by from a holy fun 4d3n chalet outing which ended just yesterday - am damn tired now. But somehow i swtill found the energy to revive this seemingly dead blog...I guess a new life has just begun.
Wanted to end my life some day last week but somehow couldn't put myself into it. Wondered why and finally got to the point to understand that its my family and friends who seem to have the invisibly strong strength that managed to pull me off such negative and obscenely irresponsible thoughts. Don't ask me why i wanna end my life cause there are more than one answer, and some in which i will never tell anyone, eve to myself, as the very thought of it degrades my level of humanity and holds me off the energy to live on. I thank all who have failed to question me about my absence from teh computer and my outwardly desplayed low feelings. It really meant a lot to me.
I am currently putting my mind down on a plan in which i have long wanted to accomplish, bt have failed to do so due to the many commitments in which i had - have and the very thought of how much work will be required for me to handle if this idea is to ever come to life. This plan - i believe will give me a new meaning to what life is all about and also an opportunity to learn, to see how much more things are required to be known for me to grow in the society of challenges. I think that somehow i am ready for this plan now.
The plan is to launch a vodcast in youtube. Something that i wanted to do for a long time but never found the courage to do. The plan has not been fully thought over by me but there's only one thing i am very sure of - i need help. I will be putting on my thinking cap for this, and when the ultimate plan comes - Let's see.
Love Lots, The Fragmented Cui Fen
