"The Left Out"
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Friday, April 24, 2009
8:59 PM
Have you ever feel so alone and naked in a room full of people because of a reason you cant explain or even talk about? This is for you guys then! My own experience of being a left out.
I was never with anybdoy to begin with. The sun's hanging in the sky with its heat drifting in the air, tasting like salt in your mouth. You look ahead of you and you see everybody, every single person whom you care or not care about. Well i gues you dont really care anymore. Their smiles are impaling themselves into your heart and you do ask yourself nothing. Everything's in silence. They move in motions. They know not you but you know them, though you may not have even talked to them at all. Nobody come up to you. Blank spaces fill your minds and souls and cold sweat starts coming down from yuour palms. Your heart turn solid cold and your brain is swimming in the air, like a fish without directions. You gradually stop breathing and everything seem to ease. The pain from the impalement of smiles and the sight of people in cliques gathering around you make you feel sick. You are truly alone in your own place. Suddenly, the phone in teh canteen rang and you rush to pick it up.
Phone: Hey
You: Hey
Phone: Bye
You know not what just happened and you hung up the phone. Looking at the phone as if it is a lifesaver. You prefer to be by the phone then with humans. But then you still went back in hope of never being alone again.
Yet you are still alone in your own space, with nothing to hold onto. The humans become clouds and you become the wind pushing the clouds to float in this polluted air. But the wind is the purest and you know it. However the wind slowly stops blowing and stays stagnant in the air, it becomes the polluted air, polluting the clouds. The clouds fall and turn into rain.
But there you are still, as human being, feeling butt-naked and alone. Crying in your lonely space. No one to hear you and no one can see. You are invisible. The sun's still beaming on top of you and the clouds floating. the people in front of you are still smiling.
The bell rang.
